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possible modules for consideration next sem:

- gender studies
- sociology of tourism
- medical sociology
- sexuality in comparative perspective
- ethnographic analysis of visual media
- management & organization
- reproductive health (for the 3rd time am considering this!)

i think i shld giv up my korean dream hahahas. ack.

mood:

i went out with ronald today. finally~~
franks is right...it's therapy heEx.
and i'm still trying to understand how things are working out...
i'm a stubborn cow. and i have my pride.
which makes it hard for me to swallow or accept things...haiz.

anyways the mass media paper today was terribly weird.
cos it's actually essays that require lots of memorising of coursepack readings & not use of analytical skills (wth. i would've memorized word for word)...
anyhow i only got the main ideas (point form) in my head.

i stand to lose if the rest of the grp all buried their heads in boOks.
and 1 qn tt came out for the mid terms came out again...ARGH. stupid lecturer...

but i'm glad i din depend so much on my commonsense and read my readings~ altho i dunno how well i will fare compared to the others.
the questions are jus too direct to be true.

i dunno whether this is considered screwing up my paper?
+ i have illegible handwriting hahahahhaa.
my hand jus cramp up when i pit against time..it's as if it's got a life of its own.
it's a very serious flaw.

i bought clothes yay!
it's a painful joy~
i'm going to spend more $$ very soOn *gasp*.

time seems to pass very slowly today.
i dunno why but i'm actually afraid of the exam tml...
not that it's strange (but even the film module which i totally had no clue how to study except to analyse films), i just bang thru the wall no matter wad direction my revision is heading towards.

and now, i'm just too afraid to look @ all the notes i've made.
because i'm afraid i'll forget them.
feeling as if i've no backing/ substance this time.
prob cos politics is my weakness.
and i'm pitting myself against people are very very well read (like in touch with politics daily).
prob cos i didn't even speak up in class (no inclination to...had no opinion altho on my own, i yelp about this module (or its content) to my frens alot
and yonghan thinks i like stuff like this but it's a phase.

just last week, i was yakking about food lOlx.
and to think he gt a A2 in his GP paper " Sleep. Discuss"
the 18yr old me would've tot the question's being ridiculous but now, i have this feeling i can write an essay about it.

speaking of GP, i rmb-ed my GP teacher always said we dun possess the writing skills (my fren's so upset with her at 1 point in time) because all our stuffs were so superficial and with the way we argue (cos alot of points are not substantial), we can't write properly in uni.

now i realize alot of stuff we did in GP were not substantial either. and wadeva we learn in arts is a whole new different world.

smth i've read frm my reading for this mod was:
Propaganda teaches pple what to think, education teaches pple how to think.

i guess uni's shown me ways on how to think instead. (in my 13th yr of education have i known how to think..how tragic is that!)
which means my JC life's quite a waste cos all we ever do is follow the rules/ formulas...no wonder i find it so hard to carry on at that time.
none of it comes from my own brain...they're all from my teachers' brains.

when we're in school, we never question whatever we come across; taking them as reality/ good for us.
i rmbed in pri school i had this really strict principal who used corporal punishment but she left when i was P5.
it was becos a parent wrote a letter to MOE, complaining that she used extreme methods (like a whip) to 'discipline' the children...apparently, some could've been coerced into saying something they've not done (out of fear).

she pulled my fren's hair and she sent my fren for a 'psychological assessment' that was assessed by a Math & PE teacher.
how unorthodox is that!
and they said she was in a sense 'psychological unstable'.
tt's ridiculous..esp. when u're nt a trained psychologist yourself.

and my parents used to say that principal was good when i was young because she made everyone so proper and disciplined.
now it's hogwash.

oh wells.
school & teachers were only scary when you're young.

mood:

what's so scary abt this paper was the AIR CON.
OMG.
u can put sushi inside and it won't go bad...
it's freezer temperature!

i came prepared with long sleeves and jeans and a cardigan but
i ended up feeling as if i'm naked. -_-'''
felt like frozen meat in cold storage.
so did the rest of the students (u can hear everyone trying to make themselves warm lOlx.)

those days are going to be back.

those days:
- putting basket on head
- high pitched 'ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh' for no apparent reason
- 'please push'
- laughing to oneself
- slapping of thighs
- overwhelmed praises

those days will soon be back.

those days that're missed alot.

those days:
- walking in the yakult rainforest
- talking till am
- taking photo in great moments
- snapping pictures in nel
- taking the ride but all that's done was talking
- long walk back to city hall mrt

i want those days back before i just go _____.

mood:

omg. omg. omg.
i did the worsT assignment of the century boOohOos.
went to collect my research term paper before my research exam..i got a COOKIE. ahhhhhh. *faints*

and having read all the comments she wrote, i seriously deserve that.
oh mans....
and with that, i need at least an A- in my exam to get a B sObx!
how is that possible when i didn't write finish my last question!
*curse the time*

but it was really a doable exam.
shucks.

but am still glad i could do the exam.
cos i seriously thought my mind will be a blank & all my memorizing will come to waste.
now i hate the fact tt i didn't do my term paper properly.
i admit it was shoddy work sigh.

mood:

i know soon everything will whizz by.
i'm waiting for everything to whizz by but not so fast tt i haven finish studying!
am pulling my hairs off over my research textbook because i have so little time left (actually little attention) to finish reading the whole book (which i don't think i will) and not to mention memorizing all the arguments & putting them to good use in the exam.

i realize my brain can't think i.e.: can't analyze but can only process during exams..
it can only spill out cold hard facts but unable to explore new possibilities & answer 'why' questions thrown back @ it in the midst of an exam.

ugh.
useless brain.
no.maybe it's the race against time & all the planning u have to do before u write out every essay.

but analyzing must come naturally, right?
i mean it shouldn't be cast in stone during revisions (altho a lot of you will say 'yes' to save time) but analysis thought out and written in an exam is like bits of inspiration to the essay and that makes an A different from a B and C.

=(
i want more of those.
now it's on my wishlist.

i dowan to be a nerd.
i want to be an intellect.
i want to be a higher order being. lOlx.

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i can't get away from the comp now.
oh no. i still have stuff to do.
whhhhyyyyyyy.

this nice cool weather and
its gentle breeze
sets my heart with ease

mood:

phew.
not that i'm finally free but at least some load's lifted off my shoulders.
had my music exam ytd...it wasn't that bad an experience & considered how badly i've lagged behind, ytd was considered a bonus already without the examiners having to frown @ me (my teacher said they're really strict & vocal pple ack).

thanks to those who listened to my complaints & encourage me!

now am considering whether i should quit learning music.
becos to pass the final exam, i have to practise 3-4hrs per day & immerse myself totally into music (which i failed to do any of them).
and even if i do practise that amount, my passion for it is long gone (ever since like 5 yrs ago).

i'm only interested in playing songs & not learning how to sight play/ come up with a new tune/ improvise a new tune etc etc.
so yea, going thru having to prepare for exam is seriously a drag & burden.

and giving up smth after so many years is indeed quite difficult as well.

all the best to uni exams!

wish me luck.
green tea sweets.

haiz.

mood:

it's 3.39pm and i'm supposed to be studying something.
uh ya.. i'm being productive.
i trust that i have good planning skills & allocate my time properly lOlx.

for now the most worrying stuff on my mind is having to read my research textbook (argh all of i think) & that sg film module...because i suck @ the mid terms which shows how not a lit student i am.

actually i just wish my music exams will be over soon.
it's bugging me every day.
it bugs me because i don't love it.
irritating. argh.

it's spoiling my relationshipssss.

i only hav 9 mins and i'm toking to 6 different pple to which i dunno who am i replying to.
they all sound same to me suddenly. HUH.

mood:

last day of school. yipee for only a few reasons~
sleep late. get up late. watch internet tv. look messy & dun give a damn.

BUT.
must studyyyyyy....arghhh...prepare....practise....do assignment....worry about exams.....

no drive left.
which is why u see a change of skin here...

after pple who've been stalking my blog bothered 2 post comments & complain abt the skin, it reveals ALOT abt how inconvenient it is. lOlx.

anyhow, got a B+ for my Happine$$ film.
which was pretty okay (not sad but i tot tt's the best thing i;ve done for that module so wish it was better..can pull grades)<--- wad a pessimistic view.

watched a couple of other groups' films..
and the whole LT luffed @ every single one whether it's sad/ angsty lOlx.
and vicki luffed the socks out of her HAHHA...cos there's 1 tt's like a spoof between initial D and the fast & the furious hahahha.

i guess the lecture group just luffed @ almost everything lOlx.

all i wanna do is just snuggle into bed or watch internet tv.
but i dun have the luxury to do that gahhhhhhhhhh.

i crave for my skoo's yong tau foo laksa.
only ate it thrice this whole sem! can u imagine?!
it used to be a weekly ritual...guess cos dun hav tt much opportunities 2 queue & well, things change *boOhoO*

i'm missing some people now.

mood:

i ate so much today (overate during my main meals)..
i just gave in to temptation despite not being hungry/ satiated.
but it was a delightful day:

1. i dun have any more nm tutorials (so i ended skoo @ 2pm instead of the 4pm!)
2. had lunch with aloysius~ only like met him 3 times this sem
3. started writing my research essay
4. met Ronald & 2/3 of the time i was laughing~ yay~~.

then i drank more fluids..apart from water:
- ice milo
- red apple kiwi juice
- 1/2 coke lime
- lemon honey.

just during lunch and dinner hours.

i wish i can just meet him everyday.
and he actually used horrible words like 'break' and 'time off'...ARGH which has negative connotations..
becos i'm prone to negativism (if there's such a word) and am still balancing on 1 foOt.

but now, it's even more not possible to meet up often anyway becos i have so lil time left for myself to prepare for the exams...HAIX.
i'm not the type of person who does that cos i'm not a fan of 'leaving my r/s alone as i have to focus on other priorities' -_-'''
as i counted, i can't really afford much. sorry ronald =(

but i believe i may somewhat overplan hehe...depends on my performance & productivity for the next 3 days~

mood:

4 more saturdays and my misery is over.
HURRY.
no not really. i dowan things to hurry because i haven even got any revision done (much less that mountain stack of readings).
still have 2 more assignments left to do (1 15page & 1 3000word essay)...
zZzzzZZzz.
not that dey're boring assignments but i just dun feel motivated to.

probably the only day i'm going to school will be monday.
and after that i'll ground myself @ home (it's a sem-ly ritual) unless there're special reasons to leave the house lOlx.
(maybe when it comes to that time, there'll be alot of special reasons lOlx.)
still everything totals up and i'm only left wif like 3 full days on average for each mod to sit down and study..

and partly so stressed about everything becos my music exam is smack in the reading week (deprived of another day + of studying).
i get more stressed up about that than the 0% revision done.

my friend said i was as cool as a cucumber (that's cos i haven written a word on my 15page and we're only left with 5 days) while she's freaking out like crazy.
yes i do freak out.
but now it's my low-peak period & maybe i believe i still have ample time (please please let it be this way).

time is tight. gah.
i just wished i had read my readings earlier.

mood:

thanks to frankie lim yonghan!!
aHHhhHHHHhHHHh.

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And to think melamine is of great hype.
Apparently we need to eat 300+ julie biscuits everyday for the next few mths to years in order to get ourselves killed.

But we've been brushing teeth since we had teeth!

Step back melamine.